coffee break

seating here in a coffeeshop, life flashing and passing in front of me. i question my own mortality, when is my time? i won’t say that i’m ready to die, but i think about it. and if so, i’m ok with. if your definition of readiness to die is being at peace with the idea then you can say that i am ready. but i’m not. not for anything else, not spiritual or religious as i don’t believe in those shit.

i want to do more, a lot more. i want to live forever. for a man who said he’s ok to die, that’s a little contradicting. living forever is being immortalized, like jose rizal and big bird. i want to be remembered, in a good way of course, i may not be religious by i still believe in doing good. nobody wants to be remembered as the bitchy person who scrutinizes wardrobe and style from head to toe. rather, someone who influences and improved style and beauty of people and things around. it’s all in the sentence construct and perspective of the one writing… i want to be more, not just the enterprise architect that i am. a mentor, professor, designer, yogi, president.

that’s the problem. the problem of the guy who wants to be everything to everyone.

the trouble of living vicariously through other people is that you tend to want it for yourself. then, the trouble begins.

*the trouble with living vicariously through other people is that you tend to want it for yourself. then, trouble begins.

listening to:
We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things. – Jason Mraz : The Dynamo Of Volition

this is long over due.

All those sleepless nights
All the tears I cried
All the pain I kept inside
I kept asking myself why
You had to say goodbye
Was it just a dream
When you said to me
That there is someone new in your life
You could have at least lied
The truth just scared me

Even if…
You mean the whole damn world to me
I can forget you, wait and see
I can be strong even without you
I cant waste my life forever
Hoping you’d come back to me
But deep inside I know
Ill be waiting here for you

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