lucky
Tuesday, May 19th, 2009i’m in a rut. for the last 4 years. seriously. but the thing is i’m ok with it. i might complain about it from time to time but looking at it now, i’m perfectly fine with it. i’m having fun which is the bottom line in this exercise we call life. now that’s being sarcastic.
pardon me if i choose not to elaborate. i’m in an awkward place simply put. some things can be easily decided; socks, nail polish, upsized meals and holding out the tomato. some things are better left in the dark, like pandora’s box. there are times that the right thing to do is no the best thing to do. he makes me happy, i know that much. my mind and common sense is telling that i will hurt in the end. in all likelihood i would end up bawling given how sensitive i’ve become listening to you and i both (waiting for my rocket – jason mraz). a friend is right, i have the flare for drama in my life. don’t ask my heart, it doesn’t listen to reason nor respond to common sense. it chooses to follow it’s own rhythm, it beats only to have its own voice. it heeds no opinion. often people say that life is cruel and unfair. i don’t believe in that, i believe that life throws you a curve ball because it throws you a curve ball. why blame some thing that can never defend itself? a tempting escape goat but not for me. this is my doing, this is entirely me.
for what it’s worth, i’m happy-for now. so life can suck it.
p.s. i know you read my blog, and hopefully you haven’t figured out you’re you. but if you do, i hope you wouldn’t change. what we have is perfect that i choose to keep my silence between us.
listening to:
We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things – Jason Mraz : Lucky featuring Colbie Caillat
