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not to worry

Thursday, June 4th, 2009

i have been blogging since 2003.01.13. 6 long years. 6 years of telling the world intimate details of life, love, travel, wants, needs… all that memories written to remind me of how foolish i have been, life’s generosity, abundance, pain, lots of first things.

and who have i been? how about you? think 6 years ago, what was life then? i know life would have been different compared to now, but how different? presented with the same problems, would i’ve done better? i’ve told a friend that life would have been easier if i were young. decisions are made easily, maybe not the best one but you can make those bold statements and actually believe them. young and restless; the world is your oyster so to speak. everything seems to be good, or good  enough. then you wake up one morning and realized that you’d grown up. no more excuses, no more foolishness. you need to own up.

youth. what is it with youth besides that it’s wasted with the young? i’m not really keen to be young again. i’m fine looking back at it and having a laugh. a big one. let the memories be memories, looking forward to creating new ones.

listening to:  
Songs I Heard – Harry Connick, Jr: Over The Rainbow

p.s. i love harry connick jr’s version of over the rainbow. of course judy garland’s more smoky and sultry, but harry’s throw back to the rat pack era hits me with the right punch.

What Recession?

Monday, December 15th, 2008

disclaimer: this post was created on the plane, drunk.

The buzz word in the financial circle is recession. Unless you’ve lived under a rock during the last quarter of ’08, you’d know by now that Uncle Sam is pretty much in deep shit. And like everything else USA, it cascaded to the whole word; everyone is now in the same deep shit. Pardon my French but the analogy/expression nails it. My company, having been born and bred in obama’s backyard, had implemented strict cost saving measures that would make Scrooge look like the most giving person. Tough times, tough measures, tough love, tough luck. That warrants a post of its own should I decide not to be in the ‘boat’ (sorry, private joke).

Fast forward to now, lulling the time at the nwa lounge together with every Joe, Mate, lad and Papichullos. I noticed that half of the room is filled with Juans, your regular farm plowing Juan less the carabao. One trendy Juan was carrying the 2009 s/s men’s Gucci tote, although not in croc, still pricey (I know, I was eyeing that bag for myself), clad in last season’s Prada loafers and Dolce jeans. First reaction, color scheme is off, too dark; needs a touch of color. 2nd realization, wtf! Am I in an alternate/parallel universe? What recession? People have the money to fly business and first class, Not just anyone, Juans, cost cutting my ass. Though I feel that the airline did some cut backs as well, crappy food less snacks. The nwa lounge in Detroit airport is now a paid club, to hell if you paid hard earned, top dollars for your plane fare. Everyone is indeed feeling the crunch, should have flown SG.

Unlike those rica Juans, I am in denial. I feel the recession chasing my fanny, breathing down my neck, so I run faster and faster, deny more and more. Fuck recession, I’ma kick its nuts off. My company will try to weather this financial instability (who are we kidding, it’s a crisis) through whatever means necessary, even how unpopular. I’ll cut back on Starbucks and shoes, that should get me through this mess, crossing fingers. One bag every 6 months, and no more expensive trips, no more fine dinning. Goodbye Dunhill tote, goodbye Prada slip-on, goodbye good ol’ times. That’s my share, anything more is plain unacceptable. Why would I compromise my life for bad choices of not even even my leader (see, in denial!). No prisoners!

On a side note, as all nwa flights, we passed by Japan via Nagoya to change plane. I am flying a code share flight to Detroit, means it’s 2 flights folded to one, Delta and NW. It’s packed! They really mean lowering cost. Been mistaken as Japanese, Korean and Chinese again, but I’m used to it by now. Sometimes I even play along using my rusty and broken Nihongo. And I resent the kids beside me, they’re flying business while I have to slave for months to afford this flight. They don’t even know the difference of patte and liver spread. Darn spoiled brats. I’ll settle with Moet & Chandon, now let see those kids have a sip of that!

living is not loving

Friday, March 21st, 2008

life’s a bitch.

why does it always hurt when it suppose to feel good?

listening to:

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lifetime of comments

Friday, January 11th, 2008

being a geek and admin powers have its draw backs. warning: geek ranting here.

i was tweaking this blog just this morning trying to make it support the open id framework. geek overload, open id is an up and coming open technology that will allow you to have a consolidated account, so it’s less username and password. anyhoo, i was successful in configuring my blog for open id. i was now trying to support open id in comments and hook it up with gravatar so that all of you who have gravatars and open id will be more than welcome in my blog.the plugin requires that the existing comments table in the database (table where the comments are being saved) have to be altered to support a new column called openid_login. however that activation script wasn’t able to create the new field, or i think it created the wrong one. so the geeky me connected to the backend and altered the table, tested it and kablam! didn’t work. missing files in the plugin. being freakishly obsessed with performance and table normalization, i deleted the new columns i created. i was using the PhpMyAdmin in doing this which i am relatively new at. very familiar with MySQL admin and query browser but not this one, but i decided to use this since it has icons and pretty colors. so i selected the new column and click the X icon, which asked me if i want to delete it.

i said yes.

tweak, tweak and then i saw another X icon in one of the tabs. i figured that it’s like a commit, similar to any SQL browser. fyi, sql browsers will alter, update, drop, create and manipulate databases without commiting. you have to explicitly commit your changes. so i carelessly press the X and disregarded the message.

now all my comments are kaput. all gone, a lifetime of comments.

listening to:
Trip The Light Fantastic – Sophie Ellis Bextor: If I Can’t Dance

bag is sophistication

Friday, July 6th, 2007

because i like, so i buy…

bagelya 1

amazing details,

details 

with a working vintage lock.

lock and key