that jump
there are times in our lives that although we know for sure that it’s the wrong choice, we still keep doing it. it seems like regressing if you think about it; i’m going back to the dark, where it seems comfortable. ignorance is bliss.
i keep fooling myself that it’s ok, you can handle it, new experience. in all honesty, it’s under control. but the lure to cross beyond is tempting, more that what i fear. not for anything else, i am tempted to try, to see how it is and how it would play out. i am already in its gaping jaws, i’m more than halfway to walk away. curiosity kills the cat as they say, siting here i wonder if i would have the same fate. i’ve decided for now to go against what i would normally do. this time no more reservations, no fears. hedonistic as it may sound, i need to do this and i will do it.
you don’t need to taste sugar to know it’s sweet. but i need to.
Tags: dark days
