i am here
i haven’t been blogging much, haven’t been internet-ing much; my mind is full, finding it difficult to put into words. i’ve always have this impediment but this time it was more difficult. i drank myself silly last friday with hope that it will go away or that i’ll have my answer in the morning, which ever comes first. what i have was a hangover that hung the whole day. however the relentless pouring over the weekend did help, it gave me time to thinkfiddle-around what i really wanted. for now.
i decided to stay, i choose to stay. i’ve learned that i don’t need any reason for my decision, for my choosing. reasons dilutes your power to choose, it takes away your right to choose. for taking the reason takes away your decision as well. but of course i have my reasons, i just disregarded them. so far i am happy with the way things are and that’s enough for me. you can’t have it all, but what i can have is contentment and peace.
as the guru once said, there is no wrong choice. indeed there is none, only bad judgment.
listening to:
Camp Soundtrack – Tiffany Taylor And The Company: Here’s Where I Stand
Tags: decision
