the old and the brave
mom’s leaving for good. when i say for good, i mean she’s migrating to the u.s. for good-for good. everything is set, almost all her bags are packed, some had been shipped to the florida keys, where she will be staying, and she’s set to fly this sunday. i think i’ll miss my mom. though i’m used to living alone, i’ll miss her nagging and constant reminder if i have my keys with me, if i have turned off the tv in my room, to bring my used clothes downstairs. traveling had made me accustomed to be by myself, but knowing that there’s mom at home, in manila, waiting and possible nagging me for forgetting or losing something makes me feel assured, at home.
i don’t know why mom decided to live in the u.s., my siblings are against it. me, i’m all for my mom’s happiness. if she thinks she’ll be better there, then she should be there. i’m not being indifferent and distant, i just don’t want to stop my mom from doing the things she wants to. she’s 60, she should be able to decide what makes her happy. we are all grown up, we can make our decisions for ourselves, and my mom needs to make her own. her living in florida do post challenges. ocean, continents apart, i can’t just knock on her room if i want to ask her to go with me and eat thai in morato, or go shopping at greenbelt. seeing her would be an effort of planning, scheduling and some serious saving up. i can now imagine the pile of used clothes in my room as i always “forget” to bring it down.
this means that i will be living alone, alone-alone. though i have my yaya, she has her own place (2 houses down the road) and refuses to move in with me. i will be all by myself, going home to an empty apartment, cold, desolate, unappreciative…
to my mom who is brave that she’ll be living alone in a foreign country without knowing anyone, may you find that you seek. and i’ll definitely visit you before the year ends.
listening to:
Daft Club – Daft Punk : Digital Love (Boris Dlugosh Remix)
Tags: mom
April 19th, 2008 at 12:52 am
That’s sweet and sad, pogs.