coffee break

i never like holiday breaks. last year, i spent my break at the office, so technically i didn’t had any. i chose to spend it in the office to iron out problems at the project level and at the same time to get me on board with all the crazy things happening there. this time is different. i just stayed at home. at home with my mom and yaya. though my sisters did spend the christmas and new year with us, but unlike me, i had the whole 2 weeks off.

i have to say that even though i never did look forward to the holidays, more so the long break, i did enjoy having our moments as a family. i love my relationship with my mom; there’s no more taboo between us, even sex and sexuality. having my sisters with us, we talked about almost everything, our childhood, growing up, favoritism that until now mom wouldn’t admit having. by the way, i’m the least favorite. we’ve also talked about the inevitable future, mom leaving to the u.s. to migrate and mom’s favorite topic, me and my spending no existent savings. i drained my so called savings when i went plastic happy at union square and madison avenue at my last trip. it gave me a sense of family that i have not felt for a long time. i have to blame myself for that, choosing work over.i felt a little sentimental, this would be our last christmas together since mom is migrating and i am not big at family gatherings…

-oOo-

i share dats‘ sentiments and feeling, sometimes, if not most, i feel like giving up. but why bother with all those questions and ifs and what not, i’m done questioning, enough with the questions (channeling my inner carrie in season 6), it’s time to do. 

listening to:
Affection – Lisa Stansfield: All Around The World

Tags: 2008, introspect

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